miracle

I wander,
is there really happiness in life ?
I think hard but da answer is still da same,
try to be positive,
but all I can see is negative things,
I try everything,
da medicine I take doesn't not work,
then why I keep taking it,
better throw it away,
because whether take it or not take it,
I still feel da same,
everything happen for a reason,
god will not give diz to me if I cannot handle it,
Right now I just pray for a miracle.