Thursday, June 24, 2010

suaraku

di sini aku masih sendiri
merenungi hari-hari sepi
aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu

bila esok hari datang lagi
ku coba hadapi semua ini
meski tanpamu oooh meski tanpamu

bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar
mentari yang tenang bersamaku disini
ku dapat tertawa menangis merenung
di tempat ini aku bertahan

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku slalu dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

kalau ku masih tetap disini
ku lewati semua yang terjadi
aku menunggumu, aku menunggu

suara dengarkanlah aku
apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

suara dengarkanlah aku
apakah aku ada dihatinya
aku di sini menunggunya
masih berharap di dalam hatinya

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

internship

well,how to begin this. it all started on 1st December 2009. I still remember I can't really sleep that night . due to wat? nervous? anxious? I also don't know . but one thing for sure every hours I woke up. I was awake at 6.30 in the morning. bathing. praying. then ready to go to work . my mum said it still early but maybe nervous 'menguasai' me . this is my first tyme driving all by myself to Mutiara Damansara. I afraid that I might be late(due to traffic and maybe get lose) so, at 7 am I on my way there. I reach there at 7.30 which is consider too early . I call my BFF, Diyana since I get free calls to all my xpax friend due to my birthday. yup, that day is my birthday. what a perfect present I received from UiTM. at 8.00am I on my way to my office. quite nervous but 'belagak' professional. when straight to the lift. follow behind people there because I'm afraid that the lift required card to go to other level but fortunately it not. what a relief.

I reached the 3A level. pelik gak knp la xpggl level 4 je. pas2 br tau kn Chinese xske no 4 coz consider bad luck. pape je la. lps kluar lif tue,trus g kt receptionist. da cuak blk. ape ek ak ckp tyme tue. recall blk.

liyana: morning. sy start practical hari nie. nie surat.
faridah: owh yake. kejap ek
(die call someone)
faridah:jom ikut akak.

pas2 ikut la die g jmp someone call Amy. cuak lg. die bw jmp Senior Manager. ckp gitu2 je ngan die then die bw jmp kak norida.die srh kak norida knlkan dgn staff lain n wat keje check menda tah. n bg ak tmpt kt dpn kak norida. ok je. then g berkenalan ngan staff yg da dtg. of course la rmai xdtg lg. xkisah la. ak pon segan. haha. then kak maizun dtg. die minta tukar tmpt. ak ok je.mne2 pon xkisah la. sbb bkn knl spe2 pon. 1st day kt opis amat menyeksakan sbb xde spe pon ak knl n nk ckp pon xtau nk ckp kt spe. mmg byk sms je la. org bg keje buat. org lalu pandang je. hahaha. mmg innocent gle r. tyme lunch g kt kak norida.

liyana:korg slalu mkn mane?
norida: akk slalu bw bekal je. slalu diorg mkn kt tesko. jln g sne.
liyana: owh,camne nk g sne.(mke innocent gle)
norida: turun lalu jln dpn tue.
(maybe mke ak terlalu nmp innocent pas2...)
norida: jom kt g mkn skali.
liyana: akk kata da bw bekal.
norida: xpe, jom.

so,kitorg jln g tesco. die blanje mkn sempena birthday la kononnye. so,berakhir la first day. seminggu rasa cam nk berhenti je. knp la ak pilih practical kat sini. da la sorg2. org lain at least ad kawan. lg cam down ble odah dpt g hantar g miri. jeles pon ad gak. ak plak wat pe. lipat invoice n statement yg beratus2 tue. mne ak xdown. tp dua tiga hari je la. hahaha.

two three days after dat, Amy assign me to work wif Jalilah since her assistant will on leave for two month(bersalin biasa la tue). so, that the moment I get close to her and listen to every stories about her life. work related and non work related. many of my officemate xske sgt die coz die byk ckp. but I ok je. she taught me a lot of things and share her experience also. she also give me sourviner from Bali.

basically, keje dgn jalilah byk handle credit control. ape itu credit control? bahasa kasarnye is kejar org yg xbyr utang, legal kes, maintenance account dll. sebati dgn jiwa yg dipggl ceti kt UiTM and along kt sekolah. here I learn about what the pro and con changing to new system. almost five month gak la dgr diorg bising2 about da system. mmg byk trouble pon. statement of account for January lmt kluar. klau xsilap bln dua rsnye br kluar. itu pon ak kn check every customers. owh ya, every customer. yg ad 400++ cutomer tue ak kn check. ad yg slah ad yg btol. bile statement bln 2 lain plak salahnye. sian kak sharifah n kak norizan. diorg da asing2 kn tetibe slah. yup,smua yg slah kn la buang. bkn skali je slah. 3 kali slah. n tiga kali gak la da lipat masuk envelope. kn kluarkan blk n recycle blk.

February~ Sharifah had return from her holiday. honestly I quite worry what will happen to me? izzit I will be pull back to work with account department. I kinda like working with Jalilah since she teach me alot of stuff. but since Amy don't say anything about my status so I kinda ok xkisah la. die da lpe kot kewujudan ak. so,continue with my job and Sharifah had been given other task by Jalilah regarding the new system.

April ~ lg dua bln nk abis. wee~ dats tyme Izad join us as one of manager. da only malay manager(male) there. I forgot to mention, there only seven of of fourteen (including me) malay there before Izad joined us. this only for account department. at sales department, there is no malay at all. only the receptionist. my job mostly related to sales department. only recently when the new system having so much trouble and need my expertise(cewah) in reconcile the item I'm dealing with account department. I love reconcile things coz if kinda like solving a puzzle to me. the satisfaction finding the answer.

May~ mostly hand over job to sharifah. sayu je lpskan keje kt die blk. tp nk wat camne. terpaksa gak lpskan one day. hmm,kinda excited da nk abis keje n xyah menempuh jam. ad gak rs sayu.

dua mggu sblom merdeka~ siap tulis kt calendar spe ptt blanje. haha. selama dua mggu xbw bekal n mkn kt luar. weee. kenyang perut mkn free. tq smua 4 da McD, Steamboat, Garden, Secret Recipe,Pizza Hut, and Santai. kenyang2 ... hahaha

empat hari sblom merdeka ~ Jalilah yg seperti biasa smp lmt. u nk experience baru x?igtkan die nk bg lg buat assignment yg xbesh cam ari tue(kn trace blk knp byran die xsme n knp die byr cam2.. ok pjg cte klau leh xnk igt... task yg plg ssh prh ak wat). ruper2nye srh angkt tel aka jd receptionist. chehh,pnt ak melarikan diri dr dl akhirnye kn jd gak. besh gak la jd recep nie coz dpt tau spe ske gayut n dgn spe(klau org tue dlm opis r). and leh bc novel ngan berleluasa. n leh gayut!!! hahaha. nasib la. spe srh letak ak kt situ. dl ak tgk receptionist tue slalu je wat. ak tiru je. tyme ak jd tue, Izad n Jalilah slalu je melawat. tue la,letak lg ak kt situ. konon2nye experiment la tue. camne ak xde kt opis. hahaha.

last day~ kn siapkan keje2 yg terbantut sbb kn jd receptionist n seperti biasa la ari sabtu mmg xwat kejenye. siapkan keje pon still g kacau2 manager2. hahaha. mle rs sebak tp ignore dgn keje yg berlambak2. kacau kak norida,jalilah, henry, izad(ok2,basically kacau semua). then keje ak xabis pon. tetibe alarm phone bunyi, ak br teringat ak ad buat alarm berbunyi ~ yeah3 da abis practical~ok, now xthn sebak. kol 5 bg pencil and smua la alat tulis. smua da start ckp bye2. ok,perkara xdiingini berlaku. tyme ckp bye kt computer n printer yg enam bln ak gne. mata da berair. control2. g kt meja, org da mle ckp bye2. ok xthn. trus mengalir air mata. adoi,trus xmacho. ape nie ngs. smua dok ckp jgn sedey, nnt dtg melawat. ye,tau bkn sengaja nk sedey. ter ok ter. laju je nk blk. bye2 cpt2. Izad sy slalu perli2 sebak je tgk ak ngs. arrrgghhh tidakkk. kemachoan ilang. hahaha. then, salam2 peluk2. dpt braclet and stuff animal. lg xthn nk ngs. trn laju2 masuk kete. trus non stop. hahaha. ape la ak nie. dpt msg from Jalilah n Izad. ok,lg nk ngs. wawawa. jalilah ckp die ad nk bg card tp xsmua sign lg. nnt ak ckp ak claim.

TQ BBM coz giving me so much experience. yup,in my heart something I hate that place so much due to some unavoidable thing that cannot mention here. but in the end I miss it so much. I know the problem not yet been settle but I hope one day I will be coming back to Boustead not as trainee n not as account clerk but one of the top management. ecece. nk juga. xpe, berangan xsalah. :p

~amin~

mungkin ko xsedar tp ak sedar ...
byk yg bakal berubah ...
n byk yg da berubah ...
mungkin kt xhargainye dahulu ...
sehingga ini terjadi ...
tp tanpa cerita semalam tidak akn adanye ak yg sekrg ...
takdir menemukan kita ...
suka duka ...
gelak tawa ...
tangis hiba ...
semuanye hanya tggl sejarah ...
ak prh menyesal dgn ape yg berlaku ...
tp bila kukenang kembali ia merupakan satu pengajaran hidup ...
yg menjadikan ak itu ak ...
terima kasih dunia ...
di atas pengajaran hidup ...
banyak lagi ak perlu tempuhi ...
semoga ak mempunyai kekuatan utk menghadapi segala rintangan dan dugaan ...
ku berdoa kepadamu tuhan ...
berikanlah ak pertunjuk utkku mengharungi segala dugaanmu ...
amin~

Friday, May 28, 2010

pejamkan mata

ku pejamkan mata,
kau hadir disisi....
ku hulurkan tangan
kau sambut dengan kasih
tenangkanlah hatimu agar bisaku senyum
pejamkan lah matamu
jika rindukan wajahku~

ku pejamkan mata,
kau hadir disisi....
bisik mesra darimu,
menyemai kasihku....
bahagiakan dirimu,
agar bisa ku senyum...
pejamkan lah matamu
ku pasti disisi.......

untuk dikau kasih,
ku curahkan cinta suci...
yang tak mungkin terpadam,
akan terus membara...
bahagiakan dirimu
disaat ku tersenyum...
pejamkan lah matamu,
jika rindukan wajahku...
janjiku kepadamu,
aku pasti disisi....

merintih dalam jiwa,
pergiku tak kembali....
terpisah jua kita,
tak bisa ku ingkari...
sehati dan sejiwa,
kita telah berjanji...
pejamkan lah matamu,
ku pasti disisi.....
bahagiakan dirimu,
satukan lah hati,
dengan takdir jodohmu....

Saturday, May 15, 2010

life is funny

life is funny isn't it? just when you think you've got it all figured out, just when you finally begin to plan something, get excited about something, and feel like you know what direction you're heading in, the paths change, the signs change, the wind blows the other way, north is suddenly south, and east is west, and you're lost. It is so easy to lose your way, to lose direction. and that's with following all the signposts.

There aren't many sure things in life, but one thing I know for sure is that you have to deal with the consequences of your actions. You have to follow through on some things.
something had change. I know. I some point I hate the Liyana that I had become. But when I think about it, everything happen for a reason. If all those thing doesn't happen, I will not be this kind of person.

for example, if I don't have fight with a friend of mine when I was in form 2, I might not meet my 4 awesome besh friend. Ashikin, Aqma, Joanna and Yasmin. Each of u guys unique in your own way and for that I love u guys. n also diyana which had a similar name as mine u bright my day and hold most of my past secret life, hahaha . really enjoy if u're around but seem u miss ur bf more than me ... haha kidding!and to both my bf aka boy friend aka kwn lelaki (aizat n Irshad) u guys rock ... y? coz have to listen to every stupid mistake I told u guy and repeating the same sentences every times I mengadu.which is ak da ckp ko xnk dgr. hahaha.

going to finish my internship soon. going to miss my office mate although there so many drama that happen around the office that I really2 need to pekakkn telinga when listen to them. haha. but knowing them make me realize even though I complain but I still love the company. I think when I'm around, then place had been different.Y? because I change the 'atmosphere' there.

Uitm's friend. mostly now hang out with my dear Nurfadlina. she is very unique too n I never know other side of her which is xsangka ad dlm diri die. hahaha . in six month almost 4 netball game we played together(yeke 4?).really enjoy hang out with her. Rauda~ also a nice person I ever know. funny but can be serious person in the same time. glad I given a chance to be one of her friend. And one thing I miss the most is the time I spend together with Nuranisa. I really miss u n deep inside my heart feel 'terkilan' coz not really know u like before. n I don't know if u've any problem. what kind of besh friends is that? sorry nisa 4 not being able to be like before.

actually, ad byk lg nk cte psl org tp xde idea. spe2 yg xde kt dlm nie sori bebyk ye.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Be open to the new challenges

ada org ckp kt kn hadapi masalah ...
jgn lari dari masalah ...
sbb masalah tue akn menghantui diri kt nnt ...
yeke?
kenapa ak rasa kdg2 salah satu cari adalah utk kt lari dari masalah ...
sbb dgn lari dari masalah, kt dapat hindari diri kt dari terluka ...
kdg2 baik xtau dari tau sesuatu ...
sbb klau kt tau benda yg menyakitkn hati kt, kt juga yg terluka ...
so,bkn ke lari dari masalah dpt menyelamatkn diri sendiri dari terluka?
dtg dlm hidup seseorg ...
rpt dgn seseorg ...
membuatkn ak takut ...
takut kerana suatu hari nnt akn ada sesuatu yg memutuskn persahabatan kt ...
xkre la disbbkn masa,tmpt atau keadaan ...
yg pasti setiap manusia yg ak kn satu hari nnt tetap akn berpisah ...
cthnye rakan2 die tmpt praktikal ...
mungkin ak xske suasana n keadaan yg berlaku kt opis ...
atas sbb tertentu yg xleh dipaparkn di sini ...
tetapi ak xnafikan kadang2 ada masa2 yg ak gembira berada die sana ...
tp smuanye ak berakhir kurang dari 20 hari ...
enta la ...
dulu ak tau ape yg ak inginkn ...
tetapi sekarang?
ak da xpasti lagi ...
byk benda yg da berubah ...
ak xbersedia tp die tetap berubah ...
sesuatu xkn menunggu kt bersedia atau tidak ...
ia atau die tetap berubah sme ada kt ske or x ...
so,ape bleh disimpulkn di sini
Be open to the new challenges ...

Monday, April 26, 2010

bosan+lapar

selamat pagi smua ... Korg smua tgh wt pe huh?ak bosan la plak pagi2 nie kt opis...sj je try post blog melalui hp...gian nk type...ofismate da pelik da tgk ape la ak dok type laju bebenor(perasan laju)...bos reporting xdtg ari nie...die g east malaysia...bos yg bg keje xdtg lg...jam da kol 8.33...lmt lg la tue...
mls nk wt keje...kali nie kena evaluate n analysis brp harga contract n VO...xske sgt keje nie coz kn byk bertanya n jwpn akhir ak yg kena establish bkn cr figure ikut yg disediakn...da la figure yg ak bakal estabilsh tue bkn confrim btol...mati ak krg klau slh...nasib la...spe srh ak wt...hahaha
klar,manager da dtg...nk g wt keje...